Emma Rose

  Mandy had her baby! It was amazing being there when her baby was born. She is so pure and the light of God shines so bright in her eyes!

  I got to St. Marks hospital at 3:30 p.m and Mandy was just getting the epidural. I went into the delivery room with Mandy’s mom and her sisters. Mandy was having contractions and even thought she got the epidural she was having pain in her kidneys. She was so brave and did a great job delivering. Austin was so supportive all the way through the labor and he made my heart swell with gratitude. His treats her so tenderly and she deserves nothing less. :)
  There baby girl was born at 8:00 p.m. She weighs 7.2 pounds and 19”inches. Mandy was pushing and pushing and it felt like it would never end. The first doctor said it was normal for the first baby to take 1 to 2 hours to push out. It was about 2 hours of pushing. Mandy was so tired and happy when her baby girl come out :) I will never forget the doctors handing Mandy her little baby. She’s going to be an amazing mommy because she has a good heart. We were all crying and it was so beautiful. They named her Emma Rose Huffman. She’s our little rose bud :)

The Happiest Place on Earth

Had a wonderful time visiting family in California and we all went to Disneyland!!  My husband’s sister and best friend drove to California with their kids too. Tony had more vacation time then me so he flow to Organ to spend more time with his best friends who is also married to his sister. Tony and Tyler drove from Organ to California together. And that left me to drive California my self. I was very nerves there but I am so proud of my self because I drove to California. It wasn't to bad because I was listening to Twilight in the car. I really like that book.
 We all stayed at my in-laws house and all got up early with James and Brelina Haha They are 2 and 4 yrs old. I couldn't believe how big Brelina was and they are both so sweet:)
 We had a blast at Disneyland with the kids. Tyler had never been and it was fun to spend time with them. Their daughter Brelina went on the Tower of Terror and that ride is pretty scary. She didn't like the ride because it shoots you down really fast. lol They told us that she was smiling and waving going up the elevator, but once it dropped that’s when she was holding onto Tiana for dear life! Haha :) We spent 3 days at Disneyland with the kids and Tyler Tiana, Tony and I had a day for just the big rids the 4th day. The World of Color is the coolest. It's the water show that changes colors and they reflect the pictures of Disney movies onto the water. It's crazy! I love Disneyland because it’s so magical and I just love feeling like a little kids again.

It's been you all along

What did the Buddha want us to follow? He wanted us to follow are own hearts and not worship him. I think that is very interesting. Because I thought he was the divine person, but that's just it he had the divine in him and yet he was human after all. Wow, I don't know why that woke me up to understand that the Buddha didn't have all the answers or have a perfect life. He wanted to know why we suffer and how to be at peace. He found out that suffering is essential and we can't escape it. The only way to finding peace is by going inside and surrendering to what is. If we can't change it, then we must calm are minds and move forward with a brave heart. It isn't a way to solve your problems, but we don't get any were good by being mad or sad all the time! With patients with ones self and kindness to others we can find a purpose. And with that purpose we find joy. That is all there is in this life. To be free to feel whatever it is, but then to let go of it. Clinging to possessions is what makes us selfish. So if we let go of ego and be free from greed we find love for everyone!

My relationship with God has become very different. I see my self as someone that can make miracles happen and that I am the light of the world! God is the center of my being were before I felt him as some were so far away and no matter how hard I prayed or how many times I went to church I never felt him inside my soul. I'm no afraid I'm going to lose my connection with God because we have always been one. He is me and I am him. I am love and the only thing that matters is love. After I felt this in my heart were there was no judgement and I didn't have to prove my self worthy. I finally found peace and how wonderful  this liberation! God is like the rivers currant. Steady to help us on this journey to finding enlightenment. I feel at peace with what is and what will be. This moment is so precious and to be aware of this moment and to feel the Divines presents with you is being one with all.

~ Namista