Memorial weekend.

I love my family and feel so blessed. I had a great time visiting with my dad and grandma. Amy looked beautiful for the Sealing on Saturday. Haylie is such a little angle. She is the best thing in the whole world because she brightens everyone’s lives! I’m so blessed to be her aunt.


After the temple sealing we had a rainy BBQ lol The food was very good and it was so nice to see my grandma and grandpa Bradshaw :) My grandpa is getting older and it’s not easy, but I’m so glad to be there family and I love them. Everyone was complementing me on how good I looked and it feels so good to be loved:)
Tony & I saw the movie “The hang over 2” I thought it was alright, but way more of a guy’s movie lol I also had a movie night with Kim on Sunday night. We went to blockbuster and rented the movie ”Blood and chocolate.” It’s about a werewolf and Kim wanted to rent it because she just read the book. She said the book is way better! So I barrowed the book from her.Yay! I got to visit with all her sisters. Jenna is leaving with her dad so I don't see her as much. Jenna and Julia’s baby’s are so fun. Such cutie potties!:)
My husband and I went to kung Fu Panda 2 yesterday and its supper cute. I really liked it and want to see it again. Hung out with Monica and walked around the mall and she gave me some of her pants lol I love that I can fit into her pants she doesn’t want anymore. Her son Julian is getting so big! Can’t believe how fast they grow. Emmanuell is so fun and Monica’s daughter Airanna is so sweet. She always wants me to hold her.:)

Surrender pain

"The inner speech, your thoughts, can cause you to be rich or poor, loved or unloved, happy or unhappy, attractive or unattractive, powerful or weak." This is what the mind is capable of making me believe! It's hard and also easy to be aware of thoughts and let them go. We must look at them as little children and realize they are not mine; but the universes. I know I have been worked up this weekend to anger, but we are not perfect. The path of oneness is to appreciate every moment good or bad. That is the hard part because I’m so easy tempered. I want things to be pleasant and easy. I must be able to focus my energy inward and feel the Divine in any circumstance. "Trials teach us what we are; they dig up the soil, and let us see what we are made of." I have moved from the theory that I'm my past. I can move from feeling the past and just let it be. Yes, I have grown from those experiences and come out better for them, but they do not have to be my fears any longer. They are just been expensed and embraced with no longer wanting to change it.
It's like I've been awaken and can see things and feel things I've never expensed before. Like I was in a deep sleep and now see expectance and love for all. "We need God, not in order to understand the why, but in order to feel and sustain the ultimate wherefore, to give a meaning to the universe."

You will fill me with joy in your presence

This weekend was so much fun! I was over at Tasha's listening to music on Friday night. lol Her mom was getting on her last nerve! Ekkk you do not want to see them fight. So I was trying to keep the peace :) I let her listen to this song that reminded me of her. I didn’t think she liked it but last night she texted me and asked what song I showed her and if it was called Fearless. I said yep lol
She had listened to it 3 times that night! She said it made her want to cry. It is a sad song, but I like sad songs because life hurts. It's also uplifting to me to know that things can go wrong, but if we just hold on and have faith. We can make it thought anything!:)
Saturday was so warm and sunny! Yay. My husband and I went to breakfast at Dee's and after asked my sister if I could take Haylie to the park. So Tony, Haylie and I went to Sugar House park and swung on the swings and played coach with Tony's pink ball. It was fun and was so tired from chasing my little niece around.
Been Hanging out with Robyn just barely and we’ve become good friends in the few times we’ve hung out! I think she is so sweet and I'm so excited she is getting married! New friendships are get:) "Joy descends gently upon us like the evening dew."

Fun week

Yesterday was a fun day. I spent time with my husband and then worked out on the Wave for a bit. I hung out with Robyn last night and we had fun just talking and trying to put a puzzle together lol I'm not very patient with puzzles. Robyn is so nice I don't know why It took us so long to really connect because she is so fun! :)
We were talking about how she met Carlos her fiancé and about how Tony and I met. I think it’s cool we both met are husbands online. It's kind of refreshing to have that in common with someone I know because everyone I tell are always weird about it. Hahah
I'm glad Robyn found someone that's good to her because she was telling me she was in a few bad relationships before. I can't wait to go hiking with them on Sunday! Tony's coming with me too and I hope he likes hanging out with them because I think it's really important to have friends. Tonys just so shy and reserved it's not easy to get him out there.
I really want to work out and get toned Gees! lol How many times have you heard that! I don't need to be model thin I just want to feel good and healthy. So I'm done worrying about having the flat stomach or the perfect arms! I just want to be in shape and keep my body happy :) That's not to hard, right? I know it will take effort and determination, but it's so worth it.
I'ts been a busy week! Today I'm going back over to Mandy's and having BLT's for lunch:)I was over there on Monday night to bring her back her dress. Then waited for 3 hours for Austin's Dad to make us dinner lol (It was way good too!)
I wanted to go visit Victoria on Tuesday and show her my scrapbook, but she is trying so hard to provide for her family. I want her to be happy and not push her to be my friend like before. Its wonderful haha I feel so blessed to be aware of the Divine and that he wants me to love and to only feel love back. I can let things go without feeling too much pain because I know God will always do what's best for me.
She was sorry she couldn’t do anything that day, so she said today would be better for her ;) I love her so much and grateful for the time we have shared together. Hope we watch "The Wedding Date" I love that movie and I brought it with to see she if she wanted to watch it because she hasn’t seen it.
I was texting her yesterday about how I want to go camping really bad and the weather is being so difficult! lol She text back "I love camping!" lol It was so cute:) I still remember the year I went camping with her and her family. I miss being a part of her family, but life doesn’t turn out the way we plan. I thought I knew everything and now I know I am nothing because I am only God's love.
It's funny how life changes and we evolve because our hearts are so brave and fragile all at the same time. I know we can't have the past anymore, but the memories last a life time.

The Heart of the Universe

"The inner thought coming from the heart represents the real motives and desires. These are the cause of action."
The mind of the heart is so true to its feelings and needs. I don't always want to listen to it because the ego likes to be proud. It wants to dominate and feel more important. I must surrender to the Divine to feel peace. Everything flows to the rhythm to the Divines grace. Feel the now and to in brace it wholeheartedly. To not have the need to change it, but to merely acknowledge it. Being in the now and not trying to change anything is the only way to be free of the separateness and become one with all. Feel the moment and be aware that everything has its own time and in its own process.
We must let it be where it wants to be and let go! To be truthful to others and in the end you can only do that by being truthful to our selves. "I can forgive you for what you do to me, but how can I forgive you for what you do to yourself." We must take care of the soul and treasure it because it is apart of God.
I feel so close to my Divine Father and Mother. They are within me and I am felled with love. There is no separation of our hearts because we are the same heart and the same mind, forever and ever.
Namast’e: I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you in which is of love, of truth, of light, and of peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place of me, We Are One.

Blessed with friendship

Had a wonderful time at the Deeksha get together on Friday to become initiated as a Oneness blessing giver. It was beautiful, simply beautiful. We gave rose petals to our Divine in gratitude. I love being a blessing giver and sharing my gift with others. Can't wait to share it more and share the love of the Divine with everyone I meet. To just send it to them even if they aren’t even aware I’m sending it to them. It is so fun to live and be free from suffering and be so thankful for the wholeness I feel! I can't feel pain anymore :) It's a wonderful feeling that I can be one with God and have no fear. The most precious of gifts is to love and be loved in return. I don't even have to know the person to love them because they are me. They see what I see and have only love inside them.
There is no struggle because we are the bird high in the sky. Feeling the wind and knowing we are helping the wind by flying in it. :) My relationships are so much stronger because of this realization of oneness. There is only awareness of my connection to God and that he is always there inside my heart.
I reserved a great gift when seeing one of my friends this weekend. I felt our bond and I'm so happy to have been there to share together.:)She is my soul sister and I love her even if we never see each other again. That was so hard for me to except before, but now I’m free.
I will let the Divine guide my life and not try to control the way life unfolds. Life has a magical mystery and I love the unknown because it feels me with wonder. Can't wait for the next moment to revile itself and help me grow. I will grow in love and awareness of life. Live now and feel peace now!I Can only find peace in this present moment. Namista