We flow of Oneness

To be de-clutched from the mind is to lose the sense of ‘self’ as a fixed, separate, continuous entity which we refer to as ‘I’.
This means that you recognize the mind for what it is, which then no longer has power to make your decisions for you. It is not about becoming mindless, but rather about becoming what the Buddhists call ‘mindful’, being present with reality as it is.

To feel the wind of the divine flowing within and rejoicing forever

I am bliss

I can't express how happy I am to have the divine guiding my path. This moment is so beautiful and I thank my God for this moment!
I was descended from feeling week and insignificant before I started Deeksha that it was sometimes hard to breath. From all the emotions running though me I couldn’t see God's love! I was lost in my own head, thinking this was really the only way to live.

What an extraordinary awakening it is! To be free from suffering and know I can merely ask my Divine for help and he will save me every time :)
We all are one and nothing can get in the way of that because there is no residents to what is. To be connecting to the divine is by just being open and clear. Having no noise in the back of your head trying to tell you you’re not good enough.

I love having this awareness that with every passing minute I can just be grateful for my breath. Just be me and not fear the judgments anymore. God only wants me to love. I in brace the path I was always meant to travel because I am home in God!

"Oneness is inner silence, which remains undisturbed by external factors. This silence is not the opposite of noise. That is inner Oneness."

-Sri Bhagavan


"Your life is already organized within itself.”
“Life flows from life, the bud unfolds into the flower, the child ripens into the adult. Trust in each stage, celebrate it, and allow the next one to come to you effortlessly.”

To Be Reborn On Easter Weekend

I'm feeling the hurt! It’s a wonderful hard feeling to feel. I won’t lie my mind wants me to stop feeling that pain, but really I need to feel it because it needs to be healed. Wow, I loved learning Deeksha this weekend and I have grown so much. Deeksha is a gift from God, which is necessary to awaken into Oneness.
I have awakened to feel Gods love. He is now my best friend and my true heart. What I come to learn is when I feel depressed or fearfulness I can remember it's only my minds state. I can feel it and be aware of it yes, but that’s all it needs to be. My acceptance of knowing my hurt and letting God heal it.
I have had 24 hours of awakening and feeling the divine in my core center. I have awoken and have let go of ego and no long desire to be more significance over anyone else. The soul knows we are screwed without God to guide us! We can’t fix anything because we need to have faith and call upon God to help. We can do nothing because I’m not my mind or my body. This is awakening to God.
It’s in trying to understand and letting the minds doubts over power us where we get blocked from the divine. There is only awareness of what’s going on.
For example, I can feel sourness and tightness in my body, but I am free to feel it and don't need to worry about it. I can call upon the Divine to heal my sour body and only then can I be relisted from pain.
I have resonated God inside me and he has given me the peace to be ok with the unknown and with what is. I don't need to change it necessarily because I only need to look at this moment and appreciate the breath I take.
This life and my path here is just how it was meant to be and is perfect right here. To be aware is feeling only oneness and being honest with myself. Suffering happens when we recessed life’s journey. We want it this way or this way. It’s the right way now because here is the only thing you have. Be present in this moment!
Don’t worry about tomorrow or yesterday because it’s not the experience right now. When I surrender to what is I don’t have to fight anything. I can feel God and he will let me know it’s meant to be. It’s only the experienced that matters. This awareness has helped me grow and feel Gods unconditional love.
We create a prison in the mind. Only God and Jesus can heal my heart and everyone else’s. I am the bond between both sides because it’s the divine’s hand that is creating my life! It feels me with so much joy and I’m so excited to live and be a part of this world! Now I love everything and everyone. I can’t hold a grudge because there is only love!
For example, I thought it would take a miracle to love my brother again. It was God’s grace that unraveled my hurt toward me and something I needed to heal inside myself to see my little brother with new eyes. I love him with no judgments; halleluiah I’m free at last!
There is no separation to God and me there is only Divinity.I see the path and don’t have to understand because awakening is where I see the world though the divine! I know I’m not my thoughts or my body because I am merely here to experience what is intended. To having no resistance and to love without end.
What I have come to manifest for myself is that it all wants to be experienced and wants me to have beautiful relationships. I now have the golden ball of light flowing thought me and I have nothing to fear!
I became aware that God is holding me and I can still find peace in every moment. The Divine is the only thing that’s real. Isn’t that amazing? We don’t have to try to be anything because the divine is working thought us and we only need to let him in.

I feel balance with my Divine and my heart is open and I love myself for who I am! The ultimate gift is to be able to pass Gods love on and receive love from others in return. Namaste!

The path to wisdom

Every day I get up get ready for work. Rush to make something for breakfast and run out the door. It's a busy world we live in and if you’re not paying attention you will forget what life is really about...

I have come to realize that money isn’t everything, go figure right? I have had a really hard time with fiancées these little while and it’s kept me from enjoying what matters most. My husband is my heart and I would be lost without him. I love my sister and my niece so much. I want to make more memories with my parents because they are the sweetest parents. I have great friends that have stuck by my side and we have so much fun together. Love them all and want to be there for them.

I know we need money to survive and it’s easy to make it work if you’re responsible with it. I know I don't have to lose my mind worrying about money even if it's something I have to deal with. It's how I look at the situation that can get me down or I can stay positive and realizing life isn’t perfect.

I was at my mother's house the other day and she has a new picture on her wall and It said :Life doesn’t have to be perfect; to be wonderful: I took a minute for the words to really sink inn and its true! Life is just how its support to be and we have every opportunity to be happy just because. I think it's a relief to just be me and know I can do it because it’s how God works. He loves me and God will forgive me because that's His job. I don't need to be perfect I only need to do my best.

I'm going to keep my head held high and I will shine my love were ever I go!

"You can't have a rainbow without any rain." This is one of my favorite quotes, because it's absolutely true. And it gives hope to people going through hard times. If you just stay strong through them, things will get much better.

Lessons to be learned

I'm going a little steer crazy because I’m so worried about this stupid photo shoot! It's making me truly ill just thinking about it. I know I shouldn’t worry about it something so stupid, but I can't seem to stop obsessing over it... I wake up thinking about what I'm going to wear how ridiculous I am for even thinking I could be a model. And yet I can't get my money back for it so I should just relax and do the shot. I wasn’t thinking it throw and rushed into it. I payed $170.00 for the gym shoot were I should have said no and I also payed for a $350.OO for an all day photo shoot at the Salt Flats. I'm excited for that one, but still know I shouldnt have got sucked into it. I would love to make money modeling clothes and being in magazine, but I'm one out of a million girls that want to do that! I just need to realaxe and focus on the things I can control. This is something I decided to do and by golly I’m going to take this pictures and I'm going to like them lol
So in all honesty I need to start saving money and not look for a short cut to make easy money if it sounds to good to be true. Learn for life and move forward. That’s life!

Spontaneous Trip

Were back from California wow what a weekend! Tony, Luke and I drove up on Friday. Tony's parents were happy to see us and we went to the Zoo Saturday and had a really fun time there. We went to Six Flags on Sunday and Monday. The rides were crazy and so much fun! My mother in-law loves roller coasters and we were there all day long. My legs are still sore from all the walking we did. My two favorite roller coasters were Tatsu and Apocalypse. My brother Luke was super exited to ride the Superman ride and bought a superman cap. We went on Apocalypse 8 times because no one was on it so they let us keep riding it :)
My mother in-law told me I was her inspiration to lose weight because she has seen how much I have lost with no sugar and watching what I eat. She has lost 20 lbs! It felt good to hear she is getting healthier because she sees how important it is to take care of herself. It's a big commitment to make the choice to eat better. To me it didn’t feel like that big of a sacrifice I guess because I know it would make me feel better. I didn't want to feel pulled down anymore by not giving my body what it needs! I really do feel like its poison for my body to eat candy and soda all day long. It's not doing my body one bit of good.
I hope she can lose more because it will reduce her risk of trouble down the road.
I had a wonderful trip with my family and love spending time with them :)

"We have no problems, only situations. Not all problems have solutions,
but all situations have outcomes."

It's official!

I'm so happy today and with the direction my life is going! Yesterday I made my sister go to the Social Society Office with me to change my name :) I have been putting off changing my last name to Smith only because it takes a lot of work to get all your paper work into the new name. I love that I'm going to be Mrs. Smith. I love being married to Tony and I know the the best is still yet to come :)
We are going on a little road trip this weekend to California. It's crazy but so exiting! Tony and my brother want to go on this superman ride that’s goes over 70 miles per hour. wow that’s fast haha. And he really wants me to go with him too so I’m taking a few days off work. And he said just tell your work it’s for our 6 month anniversary. I almost forgot about it... and they say the man always forgets. It will be 6 months we have been married on saturday the 9th of April .<3 His is so sweet to remember it!
Can't wait to go to California and be in warm weather. It's April and it’s still freezing and it might snow this weekend! What is going on? I'm going to love getting in Tony's parents hot tube :)